to wish undone something you have already done or decided: to be sorry about it, or to take it back
This is the word for second thoughts. Something has already been said, done, or settled, and now the person wishes it were otherwise. Sometimes that shows up as sorrow over the deed, sometimes as a flat reversal of the decision, and the same verb covers both.
Its five New Testament passages spread across a range wider than any single English word:
- A son who told his father no changes his mind and goes out to the vineyard anyway.
- Judas, seeing Jesus condemned, is sick over what he has done and tries to hand the money back.
- Paul says he is not sorry he sent a letter that hurt the Corinthians, though for a while he was.
- Hebrews quotes God's oath about his priest: he has sworn, and he will not take it back.
The old rule that this word means mere regret while the New Testament's usual verb for repentance (μετανοέω) means the real thing is too tidy. Judas did feel this and it took him nowhere good, and Paul does distinguish worldly grief from the sorrow that produces a turning. But in the parable the son who has these second thoughts actually goes and works, and when Jesus tells the religious leaders they never had them about John the Baptist, he means they never came around to believing him. So this word can name a change of heart that goes all the way through. What it does not do on its own is name the whole-life turning to God that the good news calls for.
Hebrews puts the word to a different use. Quoting Psalm 110:4, it says the Lord swore and will not take his oath back, standing where the Hebrew has its own word for relenting (נָחַם). Applied to God, the word is denied: his commitment to this priest is not the kind of decision that gets revisited.
Nuances
Whether Judas's response here amounts to repentance or only to remorse, and whether Matthew's choice of this verb rather than the ordinary verb for repentance is meant to mark the difference.
- contestedMatthew chose this verb deliberately. Judas was sorry and tried to undo the deed, but he went to the chief priests rather than to God and then to his own death, so the word marks remorse that stops short of repentance.; Trench, R. C., Synonyms of the New Testament, §lxix ("μετανοέω, μεταμέλομαι"); Davies, W. D., and D. C. Allison, The Gospel According to Saint Matthew, vol. 3 (ICC; Edinburgh: T&T Clark, 1997), on Matthew 27:3
- contestedThe two verbs are not sharply divided in the New Testament, so the word choice cannot carry that weight on its own; the verb states only that Judas had a change of heart about the betrayal, and the narrative, not the lexicon, shows where it led.; Michel, O., "μεταμέλομαι, ἀμεταμέλητος," in Theological Dictionary of the New Testament (TDNT), vol. 4, pp. 626-629; Bauer, W., F. W. Danker, et al., A Greek-English Lexicon of the New Testament (BDAG), s.v. μεταμέλομαι